Back to the Future

i am one of the most impactian people when it comes to relationships. i hate wondering where its gonna go or how long its gonna last. when really i am just thinking whoes gonna hurt me and how soon so i would love to be able to fast forward!!

this is not quite back to the future but its the same concept. i feel like just know what is in the present isn't enough for me i just need to know more. i have been hurt way to many times to just keep dealing with these people as they decide to jump in and out of my life without a care in the world for how i feel.

Family portrait

some days i look back and hate every single thing i have ever done i just with i have never even taken that first breath. yeah this seems wrong and depressive but what can you do we all have those days!! i guess living at home i get the wonderfully PRIZE of dealing with my parents on a daily basis!! yay......to say the least there are alot of days when we all just don't get along here!!

this is not a movie but a song by pink called family portrait. she says basically on the outside they look happy and things are going so well but in it utter madness if you look into the true picture. i feel that, that is me in a nut shell. looks ok from the outside but don't get to close it you don't want to see the true pain, suffering, and chaos.

Willy Wonka

i am a day dreamer! i love to just imagine the most ridiculous thing i can think of and put myself right it the middle and imagine my life in pure chaos rather than one true chaos i live in every day.

i truly wish i could live the fairy tale of willy wonka and his chocolate factory. he just puts all those random thoughts into action. nothing in his mind is to far fetch to actually try and i would love to be able to me more spontaneous. unfortunately my spontaneous life has come to a complete stop since i have more than myself to think about now.

Daddy DayCare??

do you ever just feel like the world around you is spinning in seven directions at once and you are just standing still and watching things happen and you can't even move to stop them?? that's how i feel when Boston is going through one of his crazy days!!

i just see the movie daddy daycare with more kids running around then any three men could ever handle and there is always that one kid getting away with something!! i may only have one but he is more than i thing i can handle some days

Chuck E.

well lets start by saying i am not talking about that creep little doll that kills people!!

Today i am Chuck E. Cheese!!!!

ok i don't know how i could possible feel like this giant fun loving mouse for real but that is who we hung out with on Saturday and i could not help but write about it!!!

so we had the funnest day ever!! lol hahaha not really the place was packed we had to wait in a 30min line to get in then wait some more to get a table and pizza and there were even lines for games!! great time huh!! well i think Boston might be a little young for chuck e cheese yet because his favorite game was the carousel. i had a blast watching him go around and around and then around four more times!! lol but we really did have a good time we were there for like 4 and a half hours!!

Martian

i feel like i fon't fit in with the people i am around, like for some some reason or another i am just diffrent than everyone else.

today i am Oliver Platt in the movie matrian child.

i do the things that everyone else does with out a reason. i feel that all i am doing is going through the motions of my life and i have achieved nothing. day after day the same thing just doing the same things. i just wonder when i am going to fit in , if i'll find a place where i fit and i like Oliver found that place before it was to late.

oliver found a father and i found am amazing person to spen my life with to give my life meaning. its like everything has worked itself out and i can be happy doing the things i've been doing.

The sisterhood

Although i don't have the three best frineds in the whole world i do have ONE!! we have know eachother since elementary school and we know everything about eachother. the best thing about us is that no matter how long it has been since we have seen eachother we never lose the connection of our past! she is my Bridget a free spirt that is out having the experiences a nornal teen does.

I AM CARMEN (AMERICAN FERRERA)

i find that i am dealing with alot of issues that bridget doesn't really understand and doesn't have to go through. in the movie carmen is meeting her father and his new wife and kids!! that is something you kind of have to experience to understand as does having a baby and starting a family. we r living in two diffrent worlds yet we are closer than we have ever been!! i do have the best friend in the whole world LOL.

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